Today is a brand new day to start back at Chapter 1 and write a whole new story about a girl who overcame loss by living wholly and intentionally. You cant heal this wound. it will not go away, but the ache will subside. Whats left of you is whats left of you. Your sadness will never ease when you focus on whats missing. Look at whats waiting ahead for you. Do it for him. What would he want? You are breaking his heart, making it impossible for him to rest peacefully as he watches your sunshine soul dull and fade. You are loud and silly and filled to the brim with love and its time to turn your light back on and radiate.
There is beauty everywhere. Look for it. His love is in the warmth of the sunshine, his laugh is in the ocean waves, his hugs are in the breeze. He is here, fully. You are not alone. You can hear him in your heart and see him in your dreams. He can hear and see you too. And if our two worlds ever collided, he would beg for your smile and plead for your passion to come back to you. So please do right by him and start over right back at square one and rebuild what has been broken. But leave your aching heart be.
Do not rush your healing. Your heart will serve as a reminder of who else you are living for, who is waiting for you at the finish line, and what you will tell him when your inevitable day comes. Your heart is permanently changed. It has felt genuine and selfless love and now has to learn to live without it. Let the reminder of the pain of this loss guide you to who you allow in your life, friends, family, boyfriends. If your heart will not break the same then wish them well, leave them be, and walk on by. This pain is hard, but it's what makes life worth living. How lucky are you to have felt loved and valued so greatly? Don't let this pain close you off from closeness. Be open and let love pour in and use all you have been given to pour it back into the world.
You are whole even when you are hurting. You have a hand in the sky guiding you and rooting for you. But life is still your choice and you have to choose to live again. You are worth a lifetime of laughter. I hope you beauty in sunny days again. You are a creation of his love. You are his legacy. Do his life justice. Live boldly and unapologetically. Sing again.
Xoxo
